Well… Warning… not a happy blog!
I was so upset that I didn’t even celebrate my new year. I didn’t cut the cake or do the rangoli, nor did I fulfill any plans that I made. I was angry and upset about many things. The positivity that I had the day before the new year hasn’t been carried over, at least not until the day of the new year. The new year has been a gloomy day for me and my family because of me.
But that didn’t matter to me, as I was just so upset. The blog I wanted to publish was published, yet it wasn’t how it was. I know that’s not the end of the world, but it’s just the way things unfolded that made me so upset. I was so upset that I cried for three hours or so. I slept off for half an hour before midnight.
Nobody disturbed me or woke me up. Nobody had any celebrations. It’s just another night for us, not a New Year’s night.
The next day was the same flat day, just like another day. I didn’t see what Rangoli Amma made in front of our house. Neither did I wake up to make a bonfire.
Anna was trying her best to make me laugh or do something. Even though I was hungry during breakfast, I refused to eat. Well, maybe I was just too hungry. So I threw this line on their faces, “I am eating because you guys are begging me, not because I am hungry!” With that, I continued to eat.
That afternoon, I finally melted. I watched a movie with him on his laptop and then told him what it was like. He said, “That’s not the end of the world, Priya. You have many more things to do. The bonfire and the Rangoli… we will do it tomorrow or tonight.” With that, I made amends for the sad new year.
A few hours later, my friend called me and asked the reason for my abnormal silence. I am that loud person who yells and tells everyone that I am alive today too!!!
I told her I was sad and that this new year was so freaking frustrating. “I know something must have happened to you since you are so silent,” she replied to me.
As we spoke, I told her about how upset I was because of my blog site. She bitched about the situation along with me. I felt much lighter.
Then I remembered that I had a short story in my drafts that I wanted to be published. I will definitely publish it as a paperback, but before that, I wanna know the pre-reviews of my readers. So, I decided to publish it on Wattpad and did. It is this book, ‘CHANGING SEASONS’. Well, there was this unexpected plan, yet I did it. I ate the cake that I bought the day before or maybe last year (hehe), along with my brother, and ended the day.
It was not an exciting new year, yet it was fruitful in one way or another. Things don’t always go the way you want. But… we get over it, maybe in some time, some days, or even years, depending on the situation we’re in. That was what happened to me too.
Maybe I should have dealt with it more calmly without affecting others. Just because one sad and upsetting event that I had planned long ago didn’t happen, I ruined my whole family’s New Year. Maybe I was selfish. My family didn’t blame me but instead supported me in getting over it. That is how family is. My annoying brother, who seemed to be childish, consoled me. And my mom, too. When I was sad or in trouble, these were the people I could count on.